Tuesday, July 24, 2012

EBall

May bago kong natutunan ngayon, sa taong cheap eyeball ang tawag pero kung mejo class ka 'twitter group meet-up".

Matagal lang ako di naka pag blog nag evolve na mga terms.

Actually, yan lang ang palusot ng ma-pride kong partner. Kahit ano pang term gamitin nya, iisa lang ibig sabihin nun.

#naknangteteng nakakainit lang ng ulo...

Friday, July 20, 2012

New Beki in Town!

Dumadami na sila...at napapaligiran na nila ko!

May bagong saltang beki na naman sa bayan. Di makakailang beki dahil sa kilos pa lang obvious na, lalo na ang mga tropa e mga beki din.  Bagong dayo lang pero feeling close na sa akin.

Nagkataon kasi na kababayan sya ng isang close kong kaibigan babae kaya ayun instant tropa na sya nun.

Minsan napadaan dito sa bahay si babaeng friend para makiyosi. Kasama nya mga tropa nyang beki. Di ko magawang tignan dahil alam ko nakatitig sa akin.

Bigla ako kinabahan na marinig kong mag usap ang dalawang beki,

"saan na naman ang hada mo bukas?"

"sa town lang" sagot ng bagong saltang beki"

"may date kayo ni Mike noh", panunukso nung beki.

Yari! nasambit ko sa sarili ko.  Parang kilala ko yung Mike na tinutukoy nila. Siya ata yung nakaencounter ko nuon.  Actually, sya lang ang una at huli kong nakaencounter dito sa lugar namin.  

Sana lang iba yung Mike na tinutukoy nila pag nagkataon talagang yari ako, sira ang tinatago kong sikreto. Sana lang hindi madaldal tong Mike na to at makuwento ko sa bagong saltang beki.

Matagal na nila kong pinagdududahan dito, sa dami ng pinapadate nila, ni isa wala akong naging syota.

Ang hirap dumumi sa bakuran, takpan mo man, aalingasaw pa rin...

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Tail Behind the Halo

I was fooled to believe that he is a saint. That his world revolves around me. Such a crap!

I sensed it from the start the he's hiding something, but who cares! Love made me blind.  Friends would tell me that he is no extraordinary. But I am always on the defense that I knew him very well and our foundation differs us from the rest.

I was wrong...

I was brainwashed and manipulated.  A 35 year old man who brag to know the ins and outs of the PLU world has been fooled by a decade younger novice. 

This has been my karma.

I was once a cheater.  Caught but I never admitted.  My lies caused me my realtionship then.  It ended up a 3-year relationship.  It took time before I gained back our friendship. That was the past.

 

Now, I was asked for forgiveness...a second chance.  Explanations were given. Who am I not to forgive?  Trust may have been broken but never will I be the same again.  

The sinner became the saint, the saint became the sinner.  

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Stress Reliever

I stumble upon this website while researching for something.  It's worth saving and even posting here.  A list I can look back everytime stress knocks on my door.  It's a long list of things to remember during tough times but sure after reading the 75 reminders you'll feel a sense of relief somehow.

When life gets stressful, we often forget the things we should remember, and remember the things we should forget. 

1.        You never know how strong you really are until being strong is the only choice you have.  

 2.       Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

3.       You cannot change what you refuse to confront.

4.       Nobody is perfect, and nobody deserves to be perfect.  Nobody has it easy.  You never know what people are going through.  Every one of us has issues.  So don’t belittle yourself or anyone else.  Everybody is fighting their own unique war.

5.       Crying doesn’t indicate that you’re weak.  Since birth, it has always been a sign that you’re alive and full of potential.

6.       No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.  (Read Unstoppablehttp://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=marandang-20&l=as2&o=1&a=B0055X5CQ4&camp=217145&creative=399373.)

7.       Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning to dance in the rain.

8.      Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness.  Let it go.

9.       Making one person smile can change the world.  Maybe not the whole world, but their world.  Start small.  Start now.

10.   Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see things clearly.

11.    Never let success get to your head, and never let failure get to your heart.

12.    You have to fight through some bad days to earn the best days of your life.

13.    Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.

14.    You can learn great things from your mistakes when you aren’t busy denying them.

15.    Give up worrying about what others think of you.  What they think isn’t important.  What is important is how you feel about yourself.

16.    When you stop chasing the wrong things you give the right things a chance to catch you.

17.    When other people treat you poorly, keep being you.  Don’t ever let someone else’s bitterness change the person you are.

18.   You have to accept that some things will never be yours, and learn to appreciate the things that are only yours.

19.    Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by.  But that feeling is a lie.  And if you just hold on, someone will find you and help make it better.  Because we all need a little help sometimes – someone to help us hear the music in our world.  To remind us that it won’t always be this way.  That someone is out there right now.

20.   Don’t be afraid to move out of your comfort zone.  Some of your best life experiences and opportunities will transpire only after you dare to lose.

21.    Sometimes we accidentally allow small problems to escalate and dominate our lives.  If we get overcharged a few cents, it is irritating, but don’t let it ruin your day.  There will always be small issues that irritate us; the secret is to be able to give them the miniscule level of importance they deserve.

22.   Giving up doesn’t always mean you’re weak, sometimes it means you are strong enough and smart enough to let go.  (Read The Diphttp://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=marandang-20&l=as2&o=1&a=1591841666&camp=217145&creative=399369.)

23.   Ask yourself whether each of your relationships drags you down or lifts you up.  Surrounding yourself with positive, loving people is half the battle of living a happy, successful life.

24.   Spend more time with those who make you smile and less time with those who you feel pressured to impress.

25.   There are few joys in life that equal a good conversation, a good read, a good walk, a good hug, a good smile, or a good friend.

26.   Don’t dwell on the past or worry about the future for too long.  Right now is life.  Live it.

27.   No matter how cautiously you choose your words, someone will always twist them around and misinterpret what you say.  So just say what you need to say.

28.   In order to be creative, we must lose our fear of being wrong.

29.   Not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of good luck.

30.   To be great does not mean you have to dominate others.  It means you have to dominate your own potential.

31.    If you are passionate about something, pursue it, no matter what anyone else thinks.  That’s how dreams are achieved.

32.   If you keep doing what you’re doing, you’ll keep getting what you’re getting.

33.   Forgiveness is one of the primary keys to happiness.

34.   The best revenge is happiness, because nothing drives your adversaries more insane than seeing you smile.

35.   Stay positive when negativity surrounds you.  Smile when others frown.  It’s an easy way to make a difference.

36.   If a person wants to be a part of your life, they will make an obvious effort to do so. Don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for people who do not make an effort to stay.

37.   Don’t regret intimate relationships that don’t work out.  Because they will only help you find the right partner for you, and better appreciate them for everything they do and everything they are.

38.   What lies before us and behind us are tiny matters when compared to what lies within us.

39.   The real world doesn’t reward perfectionists.  It rewards people who get things done.  And the only way to get things done is to be imperfect 99% of the time.

40.   Never lie – not even a white lie!  When you steer away from the truth, you steer away from your soul.  Be honest, be real and tell the truth.  This awareness forces you to make better choices and be a stronger person.

41.    Feelings, good and bad, always come and go.

42.   Don’t get caught up in wasted potential from years past.  Potential is all we ever have.

43.   We are not alone.  No matter how bizarre or embarrassed or pathetic we feel about our own situation, there will be others out there experiencing the same emotions.  When you hear yourself say “I am all alone,” it is your mind trying to sell you a lie so you will continue to feel sorry for yourself.

44.   It is okay to be angry.  It is never okay to be cruel.

45.   Don’t pray when it rains if you don’t pray when the sun shines.

46.   Mistakes teach you important lessons.  Every time you make one, you’re one step closer to your goal.  The only mistake that can truly hurt you is choosing to do nothing simply because you’re too scared to make a mistake.

47.   Money is a renewable resource.  If you lose some money, don’t sweat it.  You can always make more.  However, if you spend valuable time stressing over money, or lost opportunity, you’ll never get that time back.  Time is more valuable than money – time is the greatest constituent of life.

48.   Never let people know that they got to you.  Ignore them.  Hold your head up high and pretend all their negative remarks don’t even phase you, and someday they actually won’t.

49.   There is nothing to hold you back except you.  And there is only one question to ask yourself: “What would you do if you were not afraid?”  Think about it.

50.   Life is way more enjoyable when you stop trying to be cool and simply focus on being yourself.

51.    It’s often hard to tell just how close you are to success.

52.   When you spend time worrying, you’re simply using your imagination to create things you don’t want.

53.   No matter how it turns out, it always ends up just the way it should be.  Either you succeed or you learn something. Win-Win.

54.   You must see things how they are instead of how you hoped, wished, or expected them to be.

55.   Even when you feel like you have nothing, someone else likely has far less.  Find them and help them.  You’ll see why.

56.   Laughter is the best medicine for stress.  Laugh at yourself often.  Find the humor in whatever situation you’re in.

57.   If you want to feel rich, just count all the great things you have thatmoney can’t buy.

58.   Forgiving yourself is far more important than getting others to forgive you.

59.   If you awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in your life today, and you pay close attention, you’ll often find that you’re right.

60.   You can press forward long after you can’t.  It’s just a matter of wanting it bad enough.

61.    It’s not about getting a chance, it’s about taking a chance.  You’ll rarely be 100% sure it will work.  But you can always be 100% sure doing nothing won’t work.  Sometimes you just have to go for it!

62.   If it were easy everyone would do it.  This is why get rich quick schemes will never be true.  If it was so quick and easy then everyone would be millionaires.  Accomplishing great things is hard work, but well worth it.

63.   Notice and cherish life’s surprises.  Just because it’s not what you were expecting, doesn’t mean it’s not everything you’ve been waiting for.

64.   Be vulnerable.  Allow yourself to feel, to be open and authentic.  Tear down any emotional brick walls you have built around you and feel every exquisite emotion, both good and bad.  This is real life.  This is how you welcome new opportunities.

65.   You must create and look for opportunities.  Opportunities rarely ever come knocking on the door of someone who’s not seeking them.  You have to create and seek opportunities for yourself.  You have to take the initiative to get the ball rolling and the doors opening.

66.   If it’s out of your control, why fret about it?  Concentrating on things you can control is how you make good things happen.

67.   Saying “no” to right people gives you the time and resources required to say “yes” to right opportunities.  (Read The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Peoplehttp://www.assoc-amazon.com/e/ir?t=marandang-20&l=as2&o=1&a=0743269519&camp=217145&creative=399369.)

68.   No matter how much progress you make there will always be the people who insist that whatever you’re trying to do is impossible. Or they may incessantly suggest that the idea or dream as a whole is utterly ridiculous because nobody really cares. When you come across these people, don’t try to reason with them. Instead, forget that they exist. They will only waste your time and energy.

69.   If you spend 80% of your time focusing on the problem and only 20% on the solution, what do you think is going to happen?

70.   No matter how badly you think your life may be going, or how messed up you think you are, there is at least one thing you are doing right in your life or you wouldn’t be alive reading this.

71.    A problem is a chance for you to learn.

72.   The greatest struggle is to be something different from what the average man is.

73.   In times of great stress, it’s always wise to keep busy, to plow your anger and frustration into something positive.

74.   One thing is for sure: Regardless of the situation, life goes on.

75.   Everyone wants a perfect ending.  But over the years I’ve learned that some of the best poems don’t rhyme, and many great stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle, or end.  Life is about not knowing, embracing change, and taking a moment and making the best of it without knowing what’s going to happen next.


 

Source: http://www.marcandangel.com/2011/07/17/75-reminders-for-tough-times/

 

 

 

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

7th Year

A month from now, this blog will celebrate its 7th year of existence in cyberspace.

Di pa uso ang facebook, twitter, instagram at kung ano ano pang social networking site.  YM pa ang sikat sa pagchat.  Ibang saya at kilig ang dulot ng blog nuon.  Nandun ang misteryo ng mga nagko-comment, ang exchange of thoughts sa bawat entries at maging ang samahan naidudulot nito kahit sa cyberspace lang.

Naging kabote rin ako sa blog world.  Minsan may entry, minsan wala, pero di ko pa rin maiwanan o magawang isara ng tuluyan ang mundong naging bahagi ng aking pagkatao.

Maraming naligaw, pero iilan lang ang tumatak, namalagi at naging kaibigan.  Madalang man mag usap lately pero alam mo maasahan ano mang oras ng pangangailangan.

Tumakbo man ang oras, magbago man ang teknolohiya, habang di nagsasara ang blogspot, mananatiling bukas ang blog ko, para alalahanin ang mga kalokohan, kapilyuhan at maging ang mga aral sa buhay ng mga hamak kong karanasan.

Cheers!


Sunday, November 20, 2011

Maturity o Insensitivity

Paano mo masasabi na mature mag isip ang partner mo?
Kapag magpaalam ka ba na magkikita kayo ng ex mo para sa isang travel tour at di sya pumayag e immature na sya?
Insensitive ka ba kung wala naman malisya yung lakad nyo at nagkataon lang naman na nagkayayaan?

Sa relasyon milya milya ang layo sa isa’t isa, kailan kailangan ang malawak na pang unawa?
Di ba pwedeng magtiwala?

D naba pwedeng maging kaibigan ang isang ex?
Immature ba kung di maalis ang insecurities ng partner mo sa ex mo?
O dapat bang maglihim na lang para wag masabing insensitive ka?

mahirap magpaliwanag sa di bukas na pag iisip...

Nagiging insesitive na ba ang isang tao kapag nag mature?
O sadyang sensitive lang ang immature?

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Ikaw nanaman...

Nanaginip ako.

Namatay daw ako. Yung kaluluwa ko andito pa sa lupa. Meron pa daw akong ibang kaluluwa na kasama ko. Tinanong ko sila kung pwede kong bisitahin mga mahal ko sa buhay. Pwede naman daw. Eto yung pagkakataon na pwede mong makita kung ano pinagkakaabalahan nila ng di ka nila napapansin.

Ewan ko kung bakit ikaw yung pumasok sa isip ko na bisitahin.

Pinuntahan kita sa opisina mo pero wala ka na duon. Bumalik ako sa sumunod na araw, naabutan kita na busy sa iyong normal na working routine. Binulong ko ang pangalan ko sayo. Hinintay ang reaksyon mo, baka sakaling buksan mo ang facebook at mabasang ako’y naglaho na sa mundo.

Pero sadyang di ko ata mababasa takbo ng isip mo. Bigla na lang akong nagising!

***
Medyo naguluhan ata ako sa panaginip ko.  Bakit kaya sya ang pumasok sa isip ko na bisitahin? Ibig ba sabihin nun na di pa rin ako nakamove-on sa kanya, kung tutuusin e sandali lang na naging kami. O baka naman gusto ko pa rin sya? 

Hmmm... siguro nga nami-miss ko lang sya. Pero not to the point na gusto kong magkabalikan kami, kumbaga for good old time sake lang.

Ang gulo ko nga!...

Friday, May 20, 2011

Seven

Bakit may ugali tayo na patuloy pa din magbilang ng taon kahit tinuldukan na to? Isang magandang halimbawa e matapos makipagbreak sa partner mo e patuloy pa din ang pag alala sa araw ng anniversary nyo halos taon taon.

Nagising ako kanina na parang may something about the date today. Ayun, ngayon sana ang 7th year anniversary namin pero mahigit sa apat na taon na rin kaming hiwalay. Minsan sinubukan ko syang batiin para malaman ko lang reaksyon nya, pero ako lang nasaktan dahil dedma lang sya.

Ano kaya sakaling kami pa rin hanggang ngayon?

Nagplano kami na mangingibang bansa at dun magsasama. Ngayon, parehas na kaming wala sa pinas, kahit magkaiba ka ng bansa di naman ganun kalayo. Ano ba naman ang 2 hours flight kung makakapiling mo ang mahal mo. Siguro tuwing may pagkakataon gaya ng long weekends e magkasama kami mag road trip at iexplore ang ibat ibang sulok ng amerika.

Oo, nagagawa namin yun...in our own separate ways!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Mamang Misteryoso

Pumasok ako sa coffeebeans para magpalipas ng oras.

Habang naghihintay ako ng order kong kape napansin kita sa gilid. Nakapang-opisina kang suot, may kasamang maaring iyong kaopisina. Busy ka sa pagtype mo sa iyong laptop habang kadiskusyon ang iyong kasama.

Pasimpleng sumilip ako kung ano pinagkakaabalahan nyo. Nakabukas ang excel habang patuloy ka pa din sa pag type. Napansin ko meron ka ng singsing. Sayang kasal ka na.

Nakuha ko na ang kape ko, sa labas ako pumuwesto para makapagyosi. Sa pagkaupo ko nagkataon na nasusulyapan kita. Hawig mo yung dati kong kaopisina, malakas ang dating mo para sa akin.

Lumipas ang ilang minuto, napansin ko umalis na ang iyong kasama. Pinagmasdan kita at inobserbahan ang iyong kilos. Mukhang normal ka naman, bukod sa madalas mong pag tawag at text sa telepono.

Alam kong ilang minuto na lang at aalis ka na rin.

Sa muli kong pagsulyap nag aayos ka na ng yong gamit. Sinabayan ko rin ng tayo ang pag alis mo baka sakaling mag cr ka at dun tayo magkaalamanan.

Sa likod na pintuan papasok sa mall balak ko dumaan papunta sa CR sa pag aakalang sa harap ka naman dadaan dahil mas malapit ito sa kinauupuan mo pero sa likod ka din dumaan. Nawalan nako ng pag asa na baka di ka na mag CR. Dumiretso nako at umihi sa dulong urinal. May dalawang taong nauna sa akin na sa pakiwari ko ay nag hihintayan at nagpapakiramdaman hanggang yung isa ay pumasok sa cubicle.

Napatingin ako sa reflection ng tiles sa aking harapan dahil sa ingay na dinulot ng pagsara ng cubicle. Saktong pumasok naman ang misteryosong mama. Ngunit di mo tinuloy ang pag ihi, malamang naintimidate ka sa taong nakaabang lamang sa CR o dahil nakita ako...

Nanalamin ka lamang at umalis na rin agad.

Bakit sya pumasok ng CR kung di naman sya iihi?

Nahiwagaan ako sa ikinilos nya kaya sinubukan ko syang sundan pero magkaiba kami ng parking floor.

Nagmadali kong inilabas ang aking sasakyan upang abutan ka sa first floor parking, nakita kita nag aayos pa lang ng kotse. Sadyang mabilis ang pangyayari, hintayin sana kitang magpaandar ng sasakyan pero meron ng nakasunod sa akin likuran. Tuluyan nakong lumabas ng parking na umaasa na masagot ang misteryo.... sayang!

Friday, December 31, 2010

Walang Naisulat

**This entry was made in May 2011 but dated December 2010 just to give the Year 2010 some recap of my thoughts and reasons behind why no entries were made that year.

Maraming beses ko ng gustong magsulat ulit pero mas malakas ang puwersa ng katamaran para ipagpaliban ang pag blog muli.

Di na rin ako nakakapagbasa ng mga blog ng mga taong dito ko rin nakilala. Malakas din ang inferiority complex ko sa pagsulat dahil higit na maraming mas magaling sumulat. Takot akong mapuna sa mga grammatical error na maari kong masambit. Anjan din ang mga nagsulputan blogger na halos pare-parehas na ang tema. Ewan ko ba pero maka-Old School ako, mas gusto ko yung mga sinaunang blog kesa sa makabagong blog entry na walang laman kundi magyabang at magpanggap. Kung sabagay, meron naman silang karapatan gawin yun dahil sila ang may ari ng blog na yun, ika nga kung iritado ka sa blog na yun edi wag mong basahin. Tama nga naman.

Marami pang mga dahilan kung bakit tumigil ako sa pagblo-blog. Anjan na yun wala akong maisulat o wala akong interesanteng masabi dahil sa kasalukuyang lugar na aking ginagalawan, in short, wala akong adventures.

Siguro din e dahil sa edad, sadyang tumatanda nako at napaglilipasan na ng panahon.

Isa rin sa naging dahilan ko e ang naunsyaming relation na tumagal lamang ng 9 na buwan ata nagtapos nung enero 2010. Alam nya ang blog na ito kaya natakot akong may mabasa pa syang iba.

Nasabi ko rin na naging matino ako sa pagpasok sa bagong relasyon kaya nahinto ng tuluyan ang pagblog ko. Pero sabi nga, once a blogger will always be a blogger, di lang natin alam kung kelan ulit magsusulat.

Pero higit sa lahat once naughty...will always be naughtier...with caution!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Pass-ko!

So paano?
Pasko nanaman
Paskong mag isa nanaman ako.
Parang tatlong dekada nako nagpapaskong mag isa ah.
Nasan ba lagi si special someone?
Nagpapart time atang santa claus pag pasko kaya laging busy
Malamang itulog ko nalang to
So paano?
Pass muna ko ngayon pasko…

Monday, October 19, 2009

The Guy in the Box

Turn on your computer
Buzz him up in YM
Ring on the skype
Chat til dawn

Day in, Day out
You’ll find him there

He’s your guy in the box.

You can see him
You can talk to him
You can smile with him
Even play with him
But one thing for sure…
You can’t have him!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Bente Tres

Today is 23rd day of the month.
Someone might have forgotten.
A number of less importance.
Who cares?
This is just a number.
Next month, there will be another 23.
Then to another months or years or decades
Who knows?
It will always be there
Like remembering the 19, 8, 5, 15, 17
Better stop counting… and reminding
What for?
Insignificant Twenty Three.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

A Fresh Start

Halos limang buwan din nung huli akong sumulat sa blog ko. Nakapagbakasyon nako sa pinas at may mga nangyari naman pero d ko pa rin magawang magsulat.

Ilang araw ko na din binabalik balikan itong blog para sa first entry ko with my new layout pero wala talagang pumapasok sa utak ko. Ngayon, mahigit dalawang oras nakong nakaharap sa computer pero di ako makaisip kung ano ang pwede kong isulat. Ano pa bang pwede na hindi pa naisusulat ng iba?

I opened my gmail account kasi meron pala akong kailangan gawin email para sa ahente ng lupa. Bigla na lang may familiar na pangalan ang nag online... si ex! Kinabahan ako, di ko alam kung magmemessage ba ako sa kanya o hindi.

Pero pagkakataon nga naman, birthday nya bukas. Matagal ko ng pinag iisipan kung babatiin ko ba sya o hindi? May takot din ako na baka di nya ko pansinin. lakasan na lang ng loob...

me: happy birthday!
ex: u remembered, thanks
me: of course po. hope ur doin fine
ex: bukas pa bday, ok naman ako
me: 23 na sa pinas
ex: ikaw musta?
me: ok lang ako d2. can i ask u something?
ex: ano?
me: galit ka ba sa akin?

Walang kagatol gatol na naitanong ko yun sa kanya. Bigla akong napaisip, handa ba ko sa possible nyang sagot sa tanong ko?

ex: huh? di naman, bakit?
me: kasi di mo ko pinapansin e
ex: sus naman, pinansin naman kita ngayon ah
me: happy nga ako e, kung alam mo lang
ex: kung alam ko lang na? ano?
me: kasi takot ako mag message sayo , kasi baka di mo ako pansinin
ex: naman macoy, ikaw talaga, pwede ba akong magalit sa yo?
me: oo naman, bkit naman hindi

Nasa kanya lahat ng karapatan para magalit sa akin, cguro nasabi nya lang yun dahil kausap nya ko. Ganun pa man, biglang lumuwag ang aking pakiramdam marinig yun sa kanya. Parang ang sarap balikan ng nakaraan, pero maingat ako sa mga salitang binibitawan, ayokong mag assume at ayoko din mareject.

ex: ok, kausapin ko lang mama ko ha
ex: alam ko may facebook ka
ex: lol, goodnight
me: alam ko din meron ka, pwede ba kita iadd?
ex: y not?
me: ok i will. enjoy ur birthday. happy birthday ulit. thnx din

Muli akong napangiti sa message nya, I may not know how often nya binibisita facebook ko pero the mere fact na alam nya na meron ako, e nakakataba na ng puso. Yup, alam ko din na may facebook siya pero wala nga akong lakas ng loob harapin sya. May permisso na sya na i-add ko sya pero di ko alam kung ia-add ko nga sya. May takot pa din ako kung ano ang makikita ko sa loob ng facebook nya. Cguro sa takdang panahon at oras.

Ayoko sanang maging cheezy unang entry ko, pero sadyang may paraan para simulan ang panibagong chapter sa buhay ni macoy. Natapos ang aking blog nuon na may mabigat na dinadala, ngayon maluwag sa loob kong magsulat muli.

Sa pagbukas muli ng aking blog, di ko na ninais na maging naughty pa, marahil cguro paminsan minsan pero ipinapaubaya ko na ang mga ganung klaseng kwento sa mga batang blogger na higit na malaya at matapang.


Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

The Love Guru

Naknangteteng, tama bang magbigay ako ng love advise? wahahaha
Disclaimer: My advise may be different from my actions hahaha :D 

kuya macoy!!!

We've decided to patch things up. Though medyo lugi ako coz after what happened, he never apologized. He just promised na he'll never keep in touch with the guy anymore. But, i dont know, ang hirap ibalik ng trust. Though i want to believe everything he says, medyo wala akong peace of mind. I'm being haunted by what he did. Big bro bakit ganun? Ako na yun nasaktan, bakit hindi ko pa sya maiwan? And i feel he's still doing the things he did in the past. Feeling ko, gusto talaga nya yung guy. Kaso nasa USA sya kaya ako muna pinagtitiyagaan nya. Paranoid na ko.


Little bro.


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Brother,

I dont know kung good news or bad news yung naging decision mo but the way i assess it mahirap nga on your part. kasi kung mahal mo ang isang tao ang tendency kasi e magbulagbulagan tayo kahit alam natin mali o masakit on your part. ang tanong na lang cguro dun e kaya mo bang tiisin yung sakit o maging paranoid ka na lang sa araw-araw.

Malakas din pakiramdam ko na gusto nya nga yung guy, kasi kung hindi, di naman sya mag eefort considering malayo yung tao. Bka di mo lang alam, sila na pala.

tandaan mo din na in a relationship the love must be mutual not one-sided, both must have long term plans and not simply ok na to na to for the meantime. remember tumatakbo oras we dont want to waste our time and effort to someone di naman pla worthy.

Isipin mo din, ano nga ba talaga ang reason kung bakit di mo sya maiwan? is it really love? physical attraction ba? or dahil leaving him would just mean getting away from your comfort zone? Isipin mo din na masaya pa ba sya sayo? ano magiging pakiramdam mo kung tipong pinagpipilitan mo lang sarili mo sa isang bagay na di ka naman bina-value?

I think a matured person makes a bold move, kahit pa di natin kaya na mawala ang taong ito pero mas masakit makita na meron syang mas mahal kesa sayo. ikaw lang din makakapagbigay ng peace of mind sa sarili mo.

Hope you weigh the pros and cons before making decisions. Whatever decision u've made andito lang ako to support you.

Trust God. He knows best.


Kuya macoy..

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Love What You See



haha, saw this commercial. reminds me of something. wala lang hehe :D

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Trio de Gago

Jarred: musta na kaya si macoy?
Jasper: ayun inutil pa din.
Charles: uy di naman, may pinagkakaabalahan lang
Jasper: alin yung pagggym nya, ayaw naman maging naughty
Jarred: e kala ko ba aliw sya dun sa mga nakikita nyang foreigner
Jasper: ikaw ba naman e araw araw makakita ng naghuhubad sa harap mo kung di ka magsawa, kailangan aksyon.
Jarred: kailangan ba naman kasi yun? e sabi nga nya mukhang napunta sya sa isla ng mga str8.
Jasper: oo kaya, mag six months na kaya since gumimik kami.
Charles: tsaka mahirap na baka matsismis sya dun, maliit lang community ng mga pinoy
Charles: pero in fairness may improvement sya sa gym ah.
Jarred: kasi focus sya ngayon, may gusto ata patunayan
Charles: ano naman yun?
Jarred: balita ko kasi meron syang kinakainisan, ubod ng yabang sa mga message status nito.
Jasper: pero ok din yun, the buff the better hehehe
Charles: asa ka pa, iba na si macoy ngayon, behave na sya
Jarred: asus! Umiral ka nanaman, kaw nga tong gumagatong kay macoy e.
Charles: bakit? Wala naman mali sa ginagawa ko ah.
Jasper: anong wala? Dahil sayo di nako makapag internet, di na tuloy ako makapanuod ng mga videos.
Charles: di ko kasalanan yun, sabi ni macoy tiis ka daw muna ng 40 days habang holy week.
Jasper: huwwaaattt??!!! More than 40 days na nga akong nagtitiis e.
Jasper: hanggang sa panaginip na nga lang ako e, maawa naman kayo.
Jarred: Hayaan mo na jasper, malay mo pag bakasyon ni macoy sa pinas e gumimik ulit kayo?
Charles: di pwede yun, may magagalit.
Jasper: ayan ka nanaman e!
Jasper: pagbuhulin ko kaya kayo ni macoy?
Jarred: oi jasper kala ko active si macoy sa mga gay community sites
Jasper: dati pero tinigilan na din, nagsawa nanaman sya
Charles: told you! Hehe
Jasper: tse!
Jarred: di ba may cam sya?
Jasper: ayun si Charles nakikinabang.
Charles: kasi po sabi ni macoy, ginagamit mo nga di ka naman nagshoshow! hahaha
Jarred: haha! Takot ka ba jasper?
Jasper: oi recently lang nya ginamit yung cam nya, di ako takot, si macoy ang takot.
Charles: e bakit nyo ba gusto pagsho-show-in si macoy e tindi ng insecurities nun
Jasper: haha for a change, dba nabanggit nya gusto nya matry lahat ng adventure kahit once lang
Charles: nasubukan na nya yun nung kabataan nya at alam ko di nya nagustuhan.
Jarred: wala naman kasi kanais-nais sa cam, may mga nagka-cam nga, puro balikat at dibdib lang ang kita, yung iba nga may mga mukha wig na lang kulang mukhang babae na.
Jasper: hahaha. oo nga hirap makipag-usap sa dibdib
Jarred: e ikaw Charles, bakit ikaw ang nakikinabang sa cam ni macoy?
Charles: secret! Hehehe
Jasper: secret ka jan! may katagpo yan tuwing weekends
Jarred: nagsho-show ka din? Hahaha
Charles: oi wholesome ako.
Jasper: sabihin mo may illicit affair. hahaha.
Charles: d naman illicit yun, compromised set up lang hehe
Jarred: pinag-isipan mo ba naman yan? di ka nanaman nakinig sa payo ko e.
Charles: kasi naman nararamdaman yun, tsaka parang di nyo naman ako kilala
Jasper: oo nga pala, kaw si mr. pihikan at torpe, kaya walang napapala hahaha
Charles: sira! seryoso lang ako pagdating sa ganyan parte ng buhay
Jasper: seryoso daw pero madalas naman adventure nuon
Charles: at ikaw kaya may kasalanan nun, ang galing mo kasing mambuyo.
Jasper: bumigay ka naman! bwahahaha
Charles: kaya nga d nako naglalapit sa yo e, di mo ba napansin, bad influence ka
Jasper: ewan ko sayo...pag ikaw nasaktan sino una mong nilalapitan? cge nga? ala kang utang na loob
Jarred: madrama ka din pala jasper haha
Jasper: konti lang naman di kagaya mo insensitive hehe
Jarred: aba at sino nagsabi nun?
Jasper: sino pa edi mga ex mo
Jarred: di naman, masyado lang siguro kong tuliro nung mga panahon na yun.
Charles: sabihin mo workaholic ka lang, bahay, office, bahay lang buhay mo, boring masyado hehe
Jarred: ganun lang cguro pag tumatanda tsaka lam nyo naman ako geek at techie
Jarred: mas prefer ko magbasa na lang ng libro at i-updated sarili sa latest technology
Jasper: kaya ayoko din magdidikit kay jarred e, buti sana kung pornography book binabasa puro photography e, walang sense
Charles: at wala rin ibang ginawa kundi magshopping linggo linggo ng kung ano ano, what a waste of money hehe
Jarred: yun na nga lang nilo-look forward ko every weekend, mahirap kaya maging bored.
Jarred: kaw din kaya may nilo-look forward every weekend kaya.
Jasper: cge kayo na lang ng kayo, paano naman ako? wala nako nilo-look forward
Charles: sori ka na lang, mahina ka kay macoy e hahaha
Jasper: tse! i'll have my revenge, tandaan nyo yan. hehe :D

Monday, March 02, 2009

Quotable Quotes

Mga quotes daw ni Bob Ong, got it from an email nilagyan ko lang ng comment, may point naman sya actually nasa tao na lang kung paano interpret.

1. "Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon." –Tama! Pero kaya kaya ng focus at control ang temptation? Ang dami kasing naughty e hehe. Tawagin kaya natin si mickey mouse baka makatulong hehehe.

2. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo." – E kung iba ang sinasabi ng puso sa utak?

3. "Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima , sampung taon sa hinaharap, mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o kamukha nya si Mike Scofield o kahawig nya si Nick Carter or magaling mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka." –Totoo to, meron akong kaklase nung elementary, super lakas ng sex appeal, halos crush sya ng lahat, ayun nabuntis at kinasal nung college, huli kong kita sa kanya losyang na sya. Sayang! hehe

4. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"– ang internet pwede kayang sisihin?

6. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawakan ng iba." – Pano kung kusa na itong dumudulas sa pagkahawak mo? Mahirap hawakan ang bagay na madulas.

7. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang." - Oo nga naman kahit masarap ang humawak.

8. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na." – Why not? Kung worth the risk naman. Toink!

9. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin." - E paano kung nasa 15th floor? nakakapagod maghagdan. Pero agree ako kahit cguro mahirap magpanik panaog sa hagdan di ko rin pagsisiksikan sarili ko.

10. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang." – Mahirap mag move on pero may secret formula ako, six months guaranteed, hehe

11. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa." - Pero remember ang mga martyr ginagawan ng rebulto.

12. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang." – Unfair talaga, kung sino mahal mo di ka naman mahal pero ganun talaga mahirap turuan ang puso kaya maghagdan ka na lang kesa elevator, exercise na good for the heart pa, hehe.

13. "Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?” – di lang sa tanghali pati sa gabi for sure di rin sila makakatulog.

14. "ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko " – eto pinakamahirap sa lahat, ang maging “addicted to you”, kelan kaya magkakaroon ng rehab para d2.

15. "hindi dahil sa hindi mo naiintindihan ang isang bagay ay kasinungalingan na ito. at hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohanan. " - or di lang talaga kayang tanggapin ang katotohanan, truth hurts e.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

I Fear

Fear that you’ll tell me it’s unfair for me…
Fear that you’ll realize the right from wrong…
Fear that you’ll feel the guilt…

Fear that you’ll say that I’m too good for you…
Fear that you’ll demand for my presence…
Fear that you’ll let me go…

Fear that soon you’ll need to choose…
Fear that soon you’ll get tired…
Fear that soon you’ll fall apart…

Fear that you won’t fight for me…
Fear that you won’t wait anymore…
Fear that you won’t be there forever…

Fear that I’m not worthy for you…
Fear that I’ll fall short of your expectations…
Fear that I’m just your cyber guy…

…Come what may, I’ll conquer my fears.